I haven’t been on this since forever. Ahh, last years problems seen so long ago. I’m even more of a fuck up then before. I hate myself even more. Every thing I do magically becomes waste. This is the reason why I hate myself this is why I can be deprived of all things while everyone has the fucking time of their lives. I don’t even have more than two people that I can confide in and one is my mom who now judges me harshly anyway. I’m just a complete fuck up. A complete fuck up who needs to realize that no matter how hard I try or how much I try to be kind everyone fucks me over in the end. Every single thing I try to do to be a better person comes and bites me in the end. These are the times in which I wish I can not be a part of this world.